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One month later.

It’s been a whole month since my first date with The Scientist and things are still going great, he has such a good energy that I can be entirely myself around him.

I’m still excited about this as I was after date one. We’ve just spent another blissful weekend together. For the first time we didn’t really leave the house and it was great! All of the amazing sex aside I really enjoyed the moments we spent together (albeit naked) just talking and being silly.

I honestly feel so lucky and grateful that we’ve found each other.

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7 facts about me. The boyfriend edition.

Ok so I said I would get The Scientist to do some facts for me. I get these are soppy and cute but I’m trying to embrace that. I’m going to copy and paste them as he wrote them from a message he sent me.

If you don’t like cringy couple stuff you should probably stop reading now….

1. Has a group of close friends and family of which she’s very protective of, and incredibly kind and considerate to, Hates everyone else.

Haha! Can’t argue with that!

2. Zombie survival plan would definitely involve zombie selfies and hoarding shoes when everyone else was hoarding food!

I love how both The Scientist and Xs facts about me say stuff about zombies! Maybe I talk about The Walking Dead too much?

3. Doesn’t realise how beautiful she is so uses an unnecessary amount of filters, seriously way too many filters!

As someone who can’t handle compliments this was hard for me to read but also made me melt…but come on dude, I know my face looks cuter with bunny ears!

4. Loves a good burger, especially if the burger contains pickles, loves pickles, even if the pickles aren’t contained in a burger.

Once again both sets of my facts are about gherkins! I do bloody love a gherkin though, and he’s right. I’m 99.9% of the time going to order a burger off the menu.

5. The following fact is X-rated and private. Really amazing at ………… . Like incredibly blow your mind amazing. The way she …….. is……. It can only be described as……………………………………………………………………………………………………

Your girls got skillz.

6. Can be very mean, demanding and a tease. But is really supporting and caring when it counts.

He’s basically nailed my personality in one fact.

7. The best, just literally the best.

Ahhhhhh you’re killing me!!

I’m so grateful he took the time to write these. Will be fun to look back on in 10 years time when we hate each other!….joking!

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Facebook official.

Yesterday’s blogs were hard to write but onwards and upwards! By the title of this post you might be able to guess what’s happened, that all important landmark of everyone’s relationship…The Scientist and I are…drum roll please…FACEBOOK OFFICIAL! Once again I’m 50% cringed out and 50% happy! Just kidding I’m obviously 99.9% cringed out! 😉

He also told his parents about us…eek! I’m actually touched as he’s close to his parents so it obviously means he believes in this.

This is the only weekend we haven’t spent together and I miss him (yes I’ve become that soppy fucker!) I can’t wait to have all the se…I mean snuggles next weekend!

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The Narcissist. Part one.

I’m going to write this post in two parts as it will be so long otherwise!

I’ve re written, posted and deleted different versions of this blog a thousand times but now I feel strong enough to post it as he’s blocked from whatsapp and deleted from everywhere else. Being with The Scientist has shown me how I’m supposed to be treated and what having a healthy relationship is all about but for the last four months things have been very different.

I’m going to put it out there now I’m not innocent in all of this, I’ve let my self down and bit back on numerous occasions and I’ve got a vicious tongue. I’ve let my heart rule my head and made massive mistakes.

So let’s begin. I met The Narcissist on POF, the first day we texted and spoke was amazing. I felt such a connection. He was hot, funny, silly and a bit of me. He seemed perfect. Day 2….ffs…day 2. He got drunk and I had to speak to him on the phone to get him out of the pub. He’s an alcoholic. I was very naive going into this as he told me he was sober and I believed him. Because we had such a connection on day one I knew I had to help him and I’m proud of myself for doing what I did that night.

That night made me realise we could never be a couple as I envisioned this would be my life. My first mistake was carrying on talking to him out of pity. I should have cut ties but he was instantly under my skin. Day 2 made us closer but also fucked with my head. From then on it was be nice for a few days and then argue this just went on and on. I was in a really shit place. I will admit I caused some of these arguments as my head was fucked. I guess I was always looking for the person who I thought he was on day one. But he never showed up again only glimpses. I don’t know why I carried on talking to him, or he carried on talking to me. I found out he had no intention of meeting after stringing me along for weeks. What he did next proved to me he was a horrible person when he was sober as well as drunk.

I’m going to end part one here. I want to try and be sensitive and think through what I’m going to write without acting on my emotions.

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Happiness.

So I’ve spent my third consecutive weekend with The Scientist and…oh god…. let’s not make a big deal out of this, but the apps are gone annnnnnd I have a boyfriend…sssh. I’m cringing hard right now but I’m also happy.

I have these wobbles thinking where’s the drama? Why isn’t there any tension? Why isn’t he a massive twat? Why am I not winding him up and pressing his buttons? I know it’s crazy but that’s the way relationships have always gone for me.

I like that we’re polar opposites, he’s the vicars son and I’m the spawn of Satan. I don’t recognise myself with him as I’m so sweet and cringey but for some reason it just fits, were so comfortable and never stop laughing but then there’s the whole other side where we can’t even make it through a tv programme without having amazing sex. He just makes me happy.

We had an awkward moment in the supermarket the other day, we high fived each other as we found our fave pasta and the sales assistant was watching and putting stock out was like ‘aww you’re in love!’ Erm….it’s the third date, steady on Susan! I don’t think I’ve ever blushed so hard in my life!

So yeah….I’m happy with him and it feels good. Unusual for a lone wolf like me but good.

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Reflections 2017

It’s that time of the year again when I marvel at how quickly the year has gone and reflects on what’s happened dating wise.

I’m not going to sugar coat it but this year has been tough. I’ve been in situations out of my control and that I never thought I would be in. I’ve done things that I never thought I would have to do. I’ve had awful dates and met some even more awful people. I’ve cried, had anxiety but it’s ok, I got through it and I’m still here.

I’ve also had fun, been on some good dates, had some good sex and laughed and made connections.

I’m ending this year dating The Scientist. Who knows what’s going to happen there? At least he’s showed me that there are some genuinely nice people in this world.

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Sex and Scrabble.

So I’ve spent another weekend with The Scientist. And it was another weekend full of sex, laughs, kisses, snuggles and all that other cute and cringy stuff that is probably making everyone vomit right now. We even played Scrabble annnnd I beat him by 30 points…but we don’t talk about that. 30 POINTS though!

I like how when we hang out it’s so comfortable and we spend the whole time together laughing. I have zero anxiety when I’m with him, in fact the only anxiety I have at the moment is being anxious about not being anxious!