31 day blog challenge, love, changes, life, career


So I’ve officially become the worlds worst blogger and abandoned my 31 day challenge on day 18! In my defence I have been moving house and transferring jobs so I’ve been super busy.

Tonight is the last night I spend in my flat in my own bed….eek! If that bed could talk, well it would probably call me a hoebag! All jokes aside I’m feeling happy and can’t wait to start my life with The Scientist.

I promise I will try and pick back up the challenge over the next couple of days. Tomorrow is the last day at work (I’m pretty heartbroken and emotional over this!) and then on Monday I start my new job and new life as a domestic goddess so please don’t be too annoyed at me if I don’t get around to it for a while!

31 day blog challenge, what i'm afraid of, me, my life

What I’m afraid of.

Day 18 of the 31 day blog challenge.

I re read my post on this from last year and it’s all about being afraid of always dicking around and never having a meaningful relationship. How things can change in a year eh?

As I’ve mentioned before I’m moving house and transferring job in a little over a week and yes I’m afraid that I haven’t made the right decision. I’m leaving everyone behind and starting fresh and it’s scary AF. I love The Scientist but I don’t like change. Don’t get me wrong I’m super excited but I have to admit I’m also terrified!

I guess you’ll find out on this blog if it all works out….fingers crossed!

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Day in the life of me!

Day 14 of the 31 day blog challenge.

Valentine’s Day.

I’m going to live blog this and publish it at the end of the day.

Before all the Valentine’s Day fun can start I have to go do that work thing, I hate it when this gets in the way of having some amazing time (and even more amazing sex!) with my beloved.

So I set my alarm for 5:26am (I have a weird thing with numbers!) to be out of the house by 6:34am I have a ridiculously long commute to work, it’s basically a 6 hour round trip. I can’t wait to move so I don’t have to do this anymore! It also never gets any easier getting up so early and I can’t remember what it feels like not to be tired.

I get to work at 9:00am (if my buses are on time!) and finish at 4:00pm. I work in retail which is pretty soul destroying to be honest. But a girls gotta buy shoes!

It’s now 4:17 and I’m on the way to meet my beloved for our very first Valentine’s Day together. Even though we’ve only been together 3 months we’ve had each other’s birthdays, Christmas and New Years to celebrate. He always buys the most thoughtful gifts so I hope he likes the card I made him and the other bits for us to both enjoy. 😉

We have a little routine at home where I have my bath and The Scientist makes me my dinner, he always makes me the most delicious meals so we exchanged gifts and did this…

I’m going to end this post here as I want to enjoy our night together.

Happy Valentine’s Day everyone!!

31 day blog challenge, me, my life, thoughts, ideas

Something I thought about doing once, but I never did.

Day 12 of the 31 day blog challenge.

This is quite a broad topic isn’t it? My mind is like a little ping pong ball at the best of times going from idea to idea so I have hundreds of thoughts about doing stuff and then get waylaid and never do them! I’m going to relate this back to the original topic of this whole blog, dating and go with speed dating. I considered doing it a few times but never went through with it. The main reasons being that I would have had to do it drunk and drunk Tanya is not the one, I’m also not sure I come across well within the first five minutes of meeting. I’m definitely more of a grower than a shower. Live Tinder definitely wouldn’t be for me!

I also had more than one thought about getting a tattoo sleeve…thank fuck that ping ponged out of my head eh?

31 day blog challenge, me, my life, if i won the lottery

If I won the lottery.

Day 11 of the 31 day blog challenge.

I did this post during my blog challenge last year and I think I said most of it would go on shoes and handbags…yep, nothing much as changed in a year as that would definitely still be the case.

Seeing as I have a beloved now, I would quit my job and he would take a sabbatical (as he has a proper job!) and I would like to travel the world with him. I would also like to buy our dream house (with beams!) and constantly have sex on our stacks of money!

Obviously I’d be generous with my friends and family with the pennies left over from buying all the shoes.

I’d make such a good millionaire!

31 day blog challenge, celebrity crush, me, my life

First Celebrity crush.

Day 10 of the 31 day blog challenge.

Ok this is kinda embarrassing but Mark Owen from Take That was my first celebrity crush I had this poster on the wall…. Innocently I just thought he really liked soft skin and not cocaine.

In my defence I was only about 10 at the time. The man is wearing a belly top ffs I don’t think I have any defence do I?!

31 day blog challenge, me, my life, throwback, 2017

An old photo of me and the story behind it.

Day 8 of the 31 day blog challenge.

I think I’m going to go quite deep with this post and show you a picture of me from this time last year and talk about where I was at. I don’t smile in pictures due to my hamster cheeks but quite frankly I was miserable! Last year started off with a hideous sexual experience and that shaped my entire year. I was really down and my anxiety was high. I was constantly swiping on those apps trying to find someone/ anyone to block out what had happened and this lead to me making some really bad decisions. Mentally it was tough and physically it was draining.

At the end of the year it all changed for me and I finally fell in love and I’m happy. I realised that even though what happened to me last year was the worst and all those things I did to forget it has lead me to The Scientist and being in the most happy and positive relationship of my life. Shit can turn around and I’m so excited for this year!