I realise a lot of you will read this post and think we’re crazy and it’s super fast and maybe you’re right but I’ve never felt happier!
Soooooooo what’s new with me? Nothing much except I’ve asked for a transfer at work so I can move in with The Scientist. No biggie.
I’ve not got a single doubt about moving in with him other than where my hundreds of pairs of shoes will go, I must love him as I’ve been sorting through my stuff ( I’ve lived alone for 7 years so I’ve got a lot of crap!) and already thrown out a few pairs. It was like Sophie’s choice but harder.
I’m sad about leaving work as I love my dysfunctional family there, my friends are scattered about so that’s not a problem and I ll only be an hour away from my family.
I can’t wait to start our lives together.
So I woke up this morning and realised I was done with Mr A.
I should have actually been done when this all started going wrong but I held on to the fact things were a little different with him and that was stupid of me. Things have been a little different with lots of different people in the past so I don't know why I was blinded this time.
He's too angry and bitter. I always think how you react in bad situations shows a lot about you as a person and he's reacted awfully in this one. As I said I'm not going to tell you what's been going on as it's not my place but just because he's been treated badly does not give him the right to treat me badly back. I tried with him, I let him off thinking that it was the situation and underneath he was a nice guy but after the 75th rude and abrupt message I'm done. I can't help him, I was stupid thinking I could. He's at that stage where he's wallowing and making everything worse and fucking himself over in the process. I would be crazy to start off anything with someone like that. I need laid back and fun not someone who's ready to explode.
Looking back I should have seen this coming. Since day one he has told me about this problem and I shouldn't have ignored the way he spoke about it and honestly he shouldn't be on dating sites when he's got all this going on as he's projecting and spreading shit that people just don't need. I get everyone has their issues….read this blog I'm teeming with them but I would never let anyone who I was dating see them.
So it's back to the apps…. I feel ok about it, I've been at the beach the last couple of days so it feels like it's a fresh start.
So I’ve decided for the whole of February I’m going to delete my dating apps…ta da Tinder, bye bye Badoo, piss off POF, and oh laters OK Cupid!
I’ve gotten to the point where I’m just bored. I went to London a few days ago my phone almost blew up with tinder matches but I couldn’t even be bothered to reply to anyone I’m just not feeling it at the moment.
I also think that it’s kind of addictive so a break is probably good, the endless swiping on tinder telling myself that the next guy will be the hottest and we will have a connection, when almost all of the time the next guy is another Nike air max wearing, drugged up tiger hugging, goes ‘travelling’ to Ibiza douche bag.
I’m going to miss the ego boost I can’t lie, yes I like getting shitloads of messages a day….come on who wouldn’t? Even though 99% of them are superficial bull shit.
So where are we now? The 18th…I have 13 days to meet Mr Right (or Mr Right Now, depending on what mood I’m in!)….we can all safely say that’s never going to happen. See you in March, Tinder! 😳