I feel like I am being the worst girlfriend ever at the moment. Im tired (working 40 odd hours), stressed (facing redundancy) and poorly (probably because I’m so tired and stressed!)
The Scientist is still always there for me and a constant pillar of support and sometimes its overwhelming to deal with. He tells me to give up my job if i’m too stressed and he will support me, if i’m tired he will give me massages and make me dinner (ok i’m a shit wifey and he always makes me dinner!) because i’m poorly he went out last night and stocked up on loads of cold and flu stuff.
I’ve just read this back and ‘overwhelming’ seems negative and I don’t mean it like that its more hard to get used to, i’m used to doing things on my own and making tough decisions but now I’ve realised I would be totally lost without him in my life and I dont know what ive done to deserve him.
I feel like he’s a much better boyfriend than I am girlfriend. He’s pretty much got this whole thing nailed and I still cock stuff up and have to remind myself I’m not on my own anymore. I’ve never met someone whose just so kind and loving and expects nothing in return, take last week for example he cooked me a three course meal to celebrate our 8 month anniversary (8 WHOLE MONTHS!!!!!) and because i was too tired to erm….give him some dessert he didn’t mind and was happy just watching love island and having a snuggle, he even went as far to say if he never got any dessert again he would still love me forever!… not sure I can say the same, I love me some regular pudding!
I’m hoping this is just a temporary thing and that work calms down and I feel better soon. We’re off to Italy next week…. I’M SOOOOOO EXCITED!!!! so hopefully I can relax and chill out and after how amazing The Scientist has been give him all the Gelato he deserves 😉
So I was reading an article about how the honeymoon period in relationships is usually over in six months so does that mean it’s all down hill from now for The Scientist and I?
To be honest I’ve barely even got to the honeymoon period with other relationships let alone get past it so I have no idea what’s going on!
I still feel in the early stages. I’m learning new things about him all the time even though we spend a lot of time together. I always look forward to seeing him at the end of the day.
This week he’s away for 4 days….and I know this pathetic but I’m bereft! Absence does not make the heart grow fonder it just leaves an empty space in our bed.
I feel the same way I did about him at the beginning, the excitement is still there and the sex is still the best ever. I want this feeling to last forever. Yes we have our little routines and we’re not going out every evening being wild and crazy but I love this feeling of contentment. Staying in and watching Netflix and then having amazing sex is the one.
For me the honey moon period is over rated, yes it’s exciting but it’s also filled with nervousness, anxiety and games whilst you’re trying to feel each other out. Give me the feeling of being relaxed and comfortable any time over that!
So I’ve been living in Essex for a month now, can’t believe how quick it’s gone!
I love living with The Scientist. We have so much fun together. Next month we move into our new flat which will be awesome. Even though I love the flat we are in now it will be nice to have somewhere that’s ours from the beginning. I thought it would be a massive adjustment living together, as I mentioned before I lived alone for 7 years, but it’s not. We just fit together.
Work has been a harder transition I’m not going to lie, I miss my old work friends massively and the laughs and fun we used to have.
I feel that’s it’s completely swapped, before I had my work life in order and my love life was a mess now I have met my person and my work life needs some work! It’s only been a month though so I’m not going to complain and just give things time to settle.
I’m still 100% sure that I made the right decision to leave and move in with my beloved. Hopefully next month we will be in our new flat and I will be as happy at work as I am at home….fingers crossed!
Day 4 of the 31 day blog challenge.
Sorry I’ve been super late writing this post but I’ve been all the way up north (4 hours away!) to meet The Scientists parents so I’m super tired. It was a such a good weekend though and they are so lovely. I feel that’s another milestone for me as I’ve only met the parents once so far. It all seems to be going so well and I just love him more and more. (Sorry for the cringe!)
Anyway, I feel weird writing about childhood memories as my childhood was so rubbish I have blanked anything out from birth to primary school. Sorry that’s a bit of a downer isn’t it? It’s all good though because now I live my life trying to make as many happy memories as possible!
Sorry this post was a bit short but I’m dead and need sleep.
I realise a lot of you will read this post and think we’re crazy and it’s super fast and maybe you’re right but I’ve never felt happier!
Soooooooo what’s new with me? Nothing much except I’ve asked for a transfer at work so I can move in with The Scientist. No biggie.
I’ve not got a single doubt about moving in with him other than where my hundreds of pairs of shoes will go, I must love him as I’ve been sorting through my stuff ( I’ve lived alone for 7 years so I’ve got a lot of crap!) and already thrown out a few pairs. It was like Sophie’s choice but harder.
I’m sad about leaving work as I love my dysfunctional family there, my friends are scattered about so that’s not a problem and I ll only be an hour away from my family.
I can’t wait to start our lives together.
Last week I turned 33 (fuck me i’m getting on!) The Scientist, X and I went to my favourite beach to celebrate. I get that this is an unconventional threesome considering my well documented past with X but I love The Scientist and want him to get to know the other important man in my life. Not going to lie I was nervous. They are very different so could have been a disaster luckily they got on very well and we had a lovely day. After our beach adventure it was time to meet the family. I don’t speak to my parents and the only family I have in my life are my sister, brother in law and nieces. But luckily they fell in love with him too! My sister is equally as sassy as me and my nieces are even sassier so it could have been a tough crowd. My sister said that he is one of those people who you can’t help but fall in love with. Yep. Completely agree. I was pretty much there on date 2!
I’m going up north in a few weeks to meet his parents, even though I know they’re lovely (I’ve heard them on the phone) I’m more nervous than I’ve ever been about anything ever. I probably don’t make the best first impression. I’m cocky and loud and sweary so I’m going to have to hold all of that back! Wish me luck!
So after an amazing 2 months together and spending the last week at his I finally said those words, those words that I’ve never ever even come close to saying before. I Love you. Well actually it slipped out from him whilst we were being all snuggly and I said it back. I do love him. He makes me feel so different to anyone else. I love spending time with him and I love planning our future together. We’ve now said it a million times to each other (yeah, we’re just that cute!) but I feel it stronger every time we say it.
So yeah that all that’s new with me. The lone wolf is finally in LOVE!